I'm almost afraid to say it because it seems too good to be true, but this job is what I held out for.
Don't get me wrong, it's going to be a lot of work. It's a really, really fast paced job, with more work than time in the day. There's a lot of stuff I've never done before, and a lot of things I'm not even sure how to do, but this is what I wanted. A job where I could learn and grow and make my mark. The job I'm doing is brand new, so I get to help define what exactly it is that I'll be doing. I also am the only one in the whole charity who does what I do, which makes me feel a bit important and special.
My bosses seem awesome, and are all about learning transferable skills and taking classes. People in this charity change jobs all the time, and they seem really happy to let people hop around until they find their niche. I've already spotted a couple jobs I like the idea of, but that's as far as I'll let my brain wander. I really want to work like a beast and smash this job in the face. In a good way.
Everyone else there seems really awesome too. People are friendly, funny, smart and interesting. They even have a softball team for me to join in the spring. I spoke about softball in my interview, used it as an example of leadership or teamwork or something. I went on and on, unaware I was talking to the captain of the charity's softball team. By the end of my speech, she told me that if I was hired I'd be playing for them.
And the charity, the more I learn about what we do, the prouder I am to be a part of it. I'm sorry for being so vague, but I'm not quite ready to say where it is just yet. But rest assured it's pretty gosh darn fantastic, and one of those charities that you can't really be opposed to.
On a shallow note: The building is awesome. It's in a great neighborhood with a few nice takeaway restaurants for lunch and a direct tube to my house. And the building itself is gorgeous, with views I hope I never take for granted.
So, it looks like I have a happy ending/beginning, or at least so far so good. I go back and forth between being terrified that I'll flop and so, so proud of myself. I think the terrified thing is normal, so I'll focus on the proud for a second: I did it, y'all. I frigging fought for this. I held out, even when it sucked, because I.... I don't even know, really. Something between a gut feeling and a whole load of stubborn, I guess. But in the end, I did it. I got my job under my own steam - my CV/resume, my interviews, all me.
And I know this should be the easy part - the hard part is actually doing the job. It will be. That'll come. But for now, today, I'm so damned happy and excited and proud of myself. I listened to myself and I did it.
And from here, I can start changing the world.
[picture to follow. i've got a new laptop and my pictures are still chillin' on my old one]
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